I'm trying very hard to not be negative and offensive as I write, because that's NOT what is in my heart. And I'm aware many read what I write with an "angry" voice in their head, even if that's not my voice.
I understand the plateaus one can hit and how difficult those can be to overcome. I suspect anyone in any sort of creative field has faced them more than once.
However, this isn't really a question. It's venting. Which is understandable, but not on-topic or the point of this site. This is seeking more personal "life coaching" for how to overcome one's own hurdles. And there is no actual information in the question. It's merely a few emotion-driven sentences. That's all.
If a question were posed because someone was angry with a client.. and they posted merely 4-5 sentences explaining their anger while providing no details about anything else, that question would be closed. Merely because the emotion is more of a somber tone doesn't make a "question" more valid.
If it were a valid question much more detail and specitivity would be needed. I mean, no one here knows the user. Random advice on how to deal with disappointment is not "graphic design" in my opinion.
Again, I feel for the user. And having once been a first year student I can understand the hurdles but without specific project details and issues, it's not a valid question.
In addition, there are questions here about being more creative or breaking out of current mindsets... or using elements more effectively. Edits to this question to make it more on topic would merely mean all of those could possibly be duplicates - and that assumes the user ever returns to edit the question.
I "get" that it can be difficult to cast close votes when you empathize with the sentiment, but I look at this as "business" not "personal". A question shouldn't remain open merely due to empathy.
Of course, I'd be all in for a conversation about the topic in person or via chat. And if asked by a student I'd stop and spend time helping. but that doesn't mean it belongs on a Q&A site.